I have discovered a recurring theme. It seems lots of people give things away and just come here. Not knowing, like me why they do it. Is it just a spiritual thing as why each of us come here? I don't know? I just want to belong like everyone else does. But, it seems like me, lots of people just come here not knowing what is in store for them, once they arrive.
Like today where there were lots of friendly people in church, all of them with their stories to tell and someone to listen. Of course I did not get to meet them all. I met only a few. It seems like a nice church but my shyness is overwhelming me. I don't know why I am such a shy person, but I am. That is one of the reasons I spend so much time writing, trying to get my thoughts down with my feelings and emotions.
I am here, so I have to learn to make due with what I have, and not be so afraid of the future. I just feel lost and out of my comfort zone. I don't know who I am anymore, I just know I am in a new place with adjustments that I need to make to feel I belong here. Other people come here and they seem to make it, there is no reason I can't either, in time.
It is just that it is all new and a new way of life I have not experienced before. I wanted an adventure, I am most certainly on one and I got it. A person mentioned to me that I need to let go of the mainland way of thinking and let the island way of thinking take over and guide my thoughts now and just write.
Right now I am striving for a spiritual awaking, so I can be who God wants me to be. I don't want to think about the past right now or even write about it. As I started this blog writing the news and other articles and stories. Where now I am writing about a new place that is far away from the one I came from. Bare with me as I grow in this new environment and overcome the mainland way of thinking and begin the island way of thinking.
God bless.
James Garland
hang in there my friend it will get better
ReplyDeleteThank you Karen, I hope so.
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