Why am I here

We all ask the question, "Why am I here?" Right now I keep asking that question. I am waiting for God to somehow speak to me and guide me to what his will and purpose is for my life. I feel empty inside and without purpose. What I want and what God wants for me. My life has changed so much in how I have to do things now. It was not what I was expecting or hoping it would be like.

I just want to be a good writer but I cannot seem to make that happen, either. As long as I was writing about negative things then it seems more people were reading what I was writing. But when I want to turn to the positive things in life no one seems to care. I remember when I could sit down and write, things and they would just flow. I thought at one time I had a gift for writing but I don't know anymore if that is the case.

I have wondered all of my life what it is God wants me to do and I still have not found that answer, nor have others I know who are struggling with the same questions as I have. I am not alone and the only person in the world with these questions. We all have the same questions when it comes to God and what he wants us to do. Not knowing what it is He wants us to do.

I came to a place where I thought before I arrived that all the things would fall into place. Not knowing all the things I now have to deal with in just my daily existence now. Like everyone else I don't want to just merely exist, I want to feel alive and have a meaning and purpose and that goes back to how everyone feels, not just me alone.

I am waiting for that spiritual side of things to come to me and let me know I will be OK and I am in God's hands. The trusting that God will lead me on the right path from this day forward.

God Bless and please pray for me.

James Garland