Everywhere you look there is so much hatred in the world. From news stories, to politics. I am having a hard time grasping the turmoil that is going on around us everyday. Instead of getting better, it seems to be getting worse. This person does not get along with that person and that person does not get along with this person. Enough to drive a person mad.
All I wanted to do was write but it seems I am not doing that very well. There are things I want to write about, but I can't. At least not yet. I am struggling each day to write something of importance and meaningful. Yet, the words do not seem to come. What is wrong with me? I thought at one time God gave me a gift of writing, but it seems I have now lost it along the way.
There was a time I could just sit down and the ideas and story would just flow. What happened to that gift? Did God take it away and bring me here with no purpose. To just wither away in this vast nothingness called my existence now. Where the time seems to go slow and nothing happens. Where I am suppose to be living in paradise, yet it does not feel like it. In fact, I don't feel anything right now, except pain. Pain in exchange for all the good Karma I have put out in my life to only end up where I am now. Feeling lost and alone.
Yet, I am not alone, there are people around me. It just seems there is no connection yet. What is God waiting for? To open up my eyes, so I can see and write what He wants me to write, after all that is gift I truly believe He gave to me. I just don't know how long it will be or when it will change according to His will and purpose for my life now.
God Bless.
James Garland
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