Is anyone there

I find it interesting that people are reading things I wrote a long time ago. There must be something I have written that is keeping their interest. If only I could write what is going on around me they would see how insane it is too.

I must be going mad as I reach out to God each day to just get through another day. Another day of despair and what feels like hopelessness. Knowing there is a God out there somewhere but finding Him is what seems to be the problem. Those of us that believe there is a God. Sure there are those that don't but that is their choice.

I live in a house full of people and some of the things are a bit strange at times. I can't go into all the details as much as I would like to do.

When I left on this adventure it was suppose to be an adventure about Hawaii but instead it has turned into just surviving another day in a place far away from what I am accustomed to. I am not the only person in the world that is going through something like this, that is for sure.

I am just putting all my faith in God that He will get me through all of this and help me to find where it is I belong as I don't feel this is it. I dream daily about someone coming to my rescue but I don't see that happening either. Where someone reads my stuff from the past and offers me a deal to turn it into a movie or something like that.

Well, now that all the laughter has died down from the above statement and reality sets back in I can go on with what I was attempting to say. God brought me here for a reason. I don't know if it is to suffer and go through the pain daily that I am inside. But for some reason I am here to fulfill a purpose. I just don't know what that purpose is yet. Is it a lesson I have not learned yet? To make me stronger, as I get weaker by the day.

There has to be someone who can help me get through all of this. I just don't know who that person is yet. Is it God or is it you?

James Garland